Week-ending

It's Summer. 

Run Wild. 

The Art

Of Interest

France. 

Culinary Herbs. 

Open Air Markets. 

Wine. 

Gardening. 

Writing. 

Language. 

Love. 

Summer Routine

You couldn't wish for a more beautiful day here in Los Angeles. 

The summer sun is painting my heart a glittering gold. 

the air is clear, the east bench stands pronounced, 

I feel light and intoxicated by where I live. 

I've been processing my issues, and not sure how to remedy them... 

For someone I know phrased my dilemma
"The Lu Cycle" 

It consists of not knowing what I want.
Quitting jobs out of unhappiness/discontent,
then possibly moving back to the safety net of Chicago... etc.

It's Self Sabotage and My insane ability to make excuses for myself from 

anything & everything. 

Resulting in holding myself back from myself.

 I've been aware of these "holding patterns" 

I've spent 8 years of my life battling the vicious cycle.

Holding back or destroying any possible success. 

Regrets? Sure, Always. 

I have passion, interests, and talent within. 

I do have something to contribute... 

But will I ever save myself from myself? 

I sit here paralyzed, unsure, and fearful of not having an answer. 

All I know is that this cycle needs to break. 

I'm more than what reality thrusts upon me. 

stop thinking so much and just DO 

SOMETHING. 

yolo, 

-lu

Shot of the Day

Spinning...Again.

Hello Twenty-Five

Mental Note

Farm Life

Back to grassroots, please. 

for life. 

North?

Heading north? Maybe. 

It's funny how insecure and frightened I become just thinking about moving to a new city. 

I've been in Los Angeles for a decade and I guess it's only natural to have separation anxiety. 

 this single gal needs to be brave.

Big moves, little time. 

Or

should i listen to the vagabond within...

Don't Panic

"We must be our own 

before we can be another's"

-Emerson

* a fitting 3000th post* 

Wednesday Mood

The Feat

Love Monday

Spinning Light

Spinning

The transition in breaking loose. 

On the Horizon...Summer! 

Trust

On stubbornness.

for all those who don't know,

 I've been a nanny for a 6, 3, and 1 year old.

After three months, I could no longer coach myself through the staleness of a daily routine.

yes, I know that sounds selfish and irresponsible. 

But, I refuse to continue being a solitary 25 year old who turned 

unhappy and lonely "housewife"

 So, I quit.  cold turkey.
side note: I look forward to the day when I raise my own children,
not someone elses. 

No matter how terrified I am right now 

(like, how will I pay rent next month?) 

I must trust that the universe has my back. 

I must Trust my decisions.  

Since you only live once, 

 I Leap. 

Mental Note

"If you want happiness, don't just sit there and do nothing about it. You must go out and start looking for the elements that nourish it; and as these elements belong to the divine world, that is where you have to look for them.

Once you find them you will love everyone and everything and be loved in return; you will understand things better and you will have the power to create and achieve your aspirations."

Dusty Gold

Start Anew. 

June to Do

marnin', sweet June. 

I'm a wee bit curious about what happened to May, but alas... 

I welcome you with open arms. 

this very moment, downtown los angeles.
my brother's loft sits perched on the 6th floor in a heavy stoned, turn of the century building.

the morning greets with a gray haze, a handful of skyscrapers, the reverberating noises of buses wailing and screeching, motorcycles buzzing, and commuters impatiently honking for friday. 

Luckily, I was able to scrounge up 6 cups worth of coffee grounds,
and a line of milk just covering the bottom of a convenience store quart. 

It will do.

Anywho, back to June. 

it's been a year of transition, for most.  

moving, quiting jobs, seeking new ones, getting married, breaking up, etc. 

The cosmos are stirring, but to what degree, we're all unsure of. 

All to say, blogging was once a welcomed form of inspiration -

now, I've been so silent for the past year ( year!?) 

that I'm sure it's useless for me to start this back up again...

It's my 25th birthday this month, and my goal is to change as much as I can. 

I'm seeking friendship, love, inspiration, new work, new city? 

new experiences! 

Including, a few new blog ideas. 

So, here's to a fresh start. 

turning can't into can 

and dreams into plans. 

-Lu