Sunday, December 25, 2011

Breaking Clean

'Keep walking, though there's no place to get to. Don't try to see through the distances. That's not for human beings. Move within, but don't move the way fear makes you move. Today, like every other day, we wake up empty and frightened. Don't open the door to the study and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument. Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.'

Thursday, December 22, 2011

emerging from the depths of silence

the past three months have flown by.
I'm fully perplexed.
time is speeding at a disturbing rate and I dont like it.

anywho, i'm back from spain -
using a computer again is weird-
and i've missed blogging....
much to share.
happy to be back,

Saturday, October 15, 2011

No more

Well, I will not have a computer for the entirety of my trip.

This major misfortune delays so much I would like to be working on and sharing - but you take what life gives ya.

Till the New Year :(

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Friday, September 23, 2011


On the subject of timing, I've been suffering from another failed relationship.
I fought for the unattainable.
I'll spare you the sad details
(of our nearing 2 year relationship)

I can't wait for the day when this stops hurting.
I can't wait for the day when this doesn't happen anymore.
I will find that day.


Well, it's Friday already.
My departure for San Sebastian is this Sunday.
It's all becoming quite real now that I'm packing.
Though, timing can be a damn shame...
for I picked up a nasty cold this week.
(all my energy has been geared towards expelling this bugger)

These past two months in Chicago have been fortuitous.
From past to present, so much has been brought to Light.
It has been an intense growth process - but all so good.
cleared away the bad - ready for the good.

I can't wait to begin this Job/Adventure in Spain.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

What Moves Your Mind

"Life is one great riot of irresistible fun"
-Maxim Gorky

Salt in a Wound

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

This Very Moment

a much noticed drift,
nearing her autumnal point.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Love Monday

'We're back to Respect here and if that is missing, there's no point in holding onto something like that...' - my dear friend Jules

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Lost Track of the Light

'We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingled and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.' Anais Nin

No Fear

you will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm.

On the Turntable

On Life

I guess it really just depends on
what kind of story you want to tell.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Monday, September 12, 2011

Real Life

In A Dark Time, The Eye Begins to See. -Roethke

Love Monday

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Kneading Flowers?

Flowers from the Farmers Market,
and quenching that
Need to Knead.

Healing Energies.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

In The Shadow

 feeling depreciated, angry and drained from a night of hurtful words.
copious amounts of tea and a long walk has helped brighten my eyes,
 though still haunted by the shadows which lain behind. 

I'm reminded that I need more people in my life who nurture 
rather than enable.  
'There is a big difference between being helped 
and being treated as though we are helpless.'

'There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening, that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. 
And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium 
and will be lost.' -M. Graham

Tomorrow, all will clear. 

Inner Compass

Whatever you think you can do or believe you can do, begin it. 
Action has magic, grace, and power in it.  -Goethe

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Conscience Mind

I seem to live by the words of 

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Welcomed Revisit

you're welcome. 


This Very Moment

A Lil'Late Afternoon Fancy-Whiskey Drink. 
Mandatory on this Steamy Chicago Day. 

Full Of New Depths

' When you take a risk you may lose... 
When you don't take a risk you always lose.'

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Open Book

there's no denying the very distance that keeps us apart.
time for me has slowed now to a vanishing point.
day and night, thoughts of you torment my heart.
all's static.
like the watchful eyes of a neighbor,
a violating presence which i can't escape.

I breathe in all of what we have - and exhale a tarnished hope.
doubts continue to grow with the lack of your
there are no short cuts.

only what we can be,
right now.

or maybe I should learn to
bite my tongue

Sunday, August 28, 2011

At Last

Pizza, Wine, and The Doctor.
Single Behavior at it's Finest.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

On the Rocks

and... my conclusion
for the day.


today, I had to ease my troubled mind.
I do so by going for long walks.
the length spent walking usually constitutes the degree of my worries.
this saturday, I logged four hours.
wandering back and forth across town, up and down oak lined streets,
and gazing out upon the encroaching autumn light.
though, I did happen to meander into a couple spots.
first, a stop at The Buzz for a talk drink of iced coffee.
and then into a thrift shop, where i swooped up this pile of gems.

monies spent: $12 even
the price for soothing my soul?

Friday, August 26, 2011

There's No Concept Of Weekends Anymore

Don't judge.
When its sweltering...
I like my beer over ice.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011



On Heavy Rotation


I stumbled across this photo yesterday and I'm obsessed.
If I were to categorize my photographic appeal...
it's of candid, real life moments such as this.
I love that the foreground is out of focus,
the subjects, era, lighting, location.

Perfection in my book.
Add it to the pile of
Snaps in my Life.

Monday, August 22, 2011

A Bookish Fortress

my 'area'
the sunroom
has become a
smorgasbord of tented spines.
perched fully along the edges of the sofa
like perfect gargoyles.

apparently, I'm not one for bookmarks.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Dream A Little

9:00pm, saturday night.
ac-cent-u-ate the positive.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Monday, August 15, 2011

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Stormy Weather

Anything Different Is Good

Being here in Chicago feels like
I'm reliving the same day over and over.
Just Sayin'.

Flung Upon A Windy Hill

Rather than Think, Do.

Friday, August 12, 2011

On Heavy Repeat

Like This

'Dance, when you're broken open.
Dance, if you've torn the bandage off.
Dance in the middle of the fighting.
Dance in your blood.
Dance, when you're perfectly free.'

happy weekend.


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

San Sebastian

I can't wait to eat basque cuisine.
work as an au pair.
live alongside the sea,
and learn the city streets.

Come September 25th, dear city.
Be good to me.

So It Goes

chicagoland, now.
brisk cool air has replaced the heat.
a drastic Fall from summer.
legs curled tightly under oversized pillows for warmth.
sipping hot coffee with a greater purpose.
so it goes a city of harsh extremes,
something that the core of myself
relates to.