Summer Routine

You couldn't wish for a more beautiful day here in Los Angeles. 

The summer sun is painting my heart a glittering gold. 

the air is clear, the east bench stands pronounced, 

I feel light and intoxicated by where I live. 

I've been processing my issues, and not sure how to remedy them... 

For someone I know phrased my dilemma
"The Lu Cycle" 

It consists of not knowing what I want.
Quitting jobs out of unhappiness/discontent,
then possibly moving back to the safety net of Chicago... etc.

It's Self Sabotage and My insane ability to make excuses for myself from 

anything & everything. 

Resulting in holding myself back from myself.

 I've been aware of these "holding patterns" 

I've spent 8 years of my life battling the vicious cycle.

Holding back or destroying any possible success. 

Regrets? Sure, Always. 

I have passion, interests, and talent within. 

I do have something to contribute... 

But will I ever save myself from myself? 

I sit here paralyzed, unsure, and fearful of not having an answer. 

All I know is that this cycle needs to break. 

I'm more than what reality thrusts upon me. 

stop thinking so much and just DO 

SOMETHING. 

yolo, 

-lu