Breaking Clean

'Keep walking, though there's no place to get to. Don't try to see through the distances. That's not for human beings. Move within, but don't move the way fear makes you move. Today, like every other day, we wake up empty and frightened. Don't open the door to the study and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument. Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.'

-rumi

emerging from the depths of silence

the past three months have flown by.

I'm fully perplexed.

time is speeding at a disturbing rate and I dont like it.

anywho, i'm back from spain -

using a computer again is weird-

and i've missed blogging....

much to share.

happy to be back,

-lu

No more

Well, I will not have a computer for the entirety of my trip.

This major misfortune delays so much I would like to be working on and sharing - but you take what life gives ya.

Till the New Year :(

This Very Moment

pack it down

Discarded

On the subject of timing, I've been suffering from another failed relationship.

I fought for the unattainable.

I'll spare you the sad details

(of our nearing 2 year relationship)

I can't wait for the day when this stops hurting.

I can't wait for the day when this doesn't happen anymore.

I will find that day.

Update

Well, it's Friday already.

My departure for San Sebastian is this Sunday.

It's all becoming quite real now that I'm packing.

Though, timing can be a damn shame...

for I picked up a nasty cold this week.

(all my energy has been geared towards expelling this bugger)

*disperse-disperse*

These past two months in Chicago have been fortuitous.

From past to present, so much has been brought to Light.

It has been an intense growth process - but all so good.

cleared away the bad - ready for the good.

I can't wait to begin this Job/Adventure in Spain.

What Moves Your Mind

"Life is one great riot of irresistible fun"

-Maxim Gorky

Salt in a Wound

Donostia

Four days till takeoff.

Spinning

This Very Moment

a much noticed drift,

nearing her autumnal point.

Love Monday

'We're back to Respect here and if that is missing, there's no point in holding onto something like that...' - my dear friend Jules

Lost Track of the Light

'We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingled and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.' Anais Nin

No Fear

you will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm.

-colette

On the Turntable

On Life

I guess it really just depends on

what kind of story you want to tell.

Classic Chicago

Shot of the Day

Real Life

In A Dark Time, The Eye Begins to See. -Roethke

Love Monday

Test Run

Kneading Flowers?

Flowers from the Farmers Market,

Conservatory,

and quenching that

Need to Knead.

Healing Energies.

It Just Takes Time

happy weekend

Wednesday Mood

In The Shadow

 feeling depreciated, angry and drained from a night of hurtful words.

copious amounts of tea and a long walk has helped brighten my eyes,

 though still haunted by the shadows which lain behind. 

I'm reminded that I need more people in my life who nurture 

rather than enable.  

'There is a big difference between being helped 

and being treated as though we are helpless.'

'There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening, that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. 

And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium 

and will be lost.' -M. Graham

Tomorrow, all will clear. 

Inner Compass

Whatever you think you can do or believe you can do, begin it. 

Action has magic, grace, and power in it.  -Goethe

Spinning

Conscience Mind

I seem to live by the words of 

Lemmy.

Welcomed Revisit

you're welcome. 

September

This Very Moment

A Lil'Late Afternoon Fancy-Whiskey Drink. 

Mandatory on this Steamy Chicago Day. 

Full Of New Depths

' When you take a risk you may lose... 

When you don't take a risk you always lose.'

Open Book

there's no denying the very distance that keeps us apart.

time for me has slowed now to a vanishing point.

day and night, thoughts of you torment my heart.

all's static.

like the watchful eyes of a neighbor,

a violating presence which i can't escape.

I breathe in all of what we have - and exhale a tarnished hope.

doubts continue to grow with the lack of your

confidence.

there are no short cuts.

only what we can be,

right now.

or maybe I should learn to

bite my tongue

Spinning LOUD

At Last

Pizza, Wine, and The Doctor.

Single Behavior at it's Finest.

On the Rocks

and... my conclusion

for the day.

Antidote

today, I had to ease my troubled mind.

I do so by going for long walks.

the length spent walking usually constitutes the degree of my worries.

this saturday, I logged four hours.

wandering back and forth across town, up and down oak lined streets,

and gazing out upon the encroaching autumn light.

though, I did happen to meander into a couple spots.

first, a stop at The Buzz for a talk drink of iced coffee.

and then into a thrift shop, where i swooped up this pile of gems.

monies spent: $12 even

the price for soothing my soul?

priceless.

There's No Concept Of Weekends Anymore

Don't judge.

When its sweltering...

I like my beer over ice.

Mantra

yep.

On Heavy Rotation

Captured

I stumbled across this photo yesterday and I'm obsessed.

If I were to categorize my photographic appeal...

it's of candid, real life moments such as this.

I love that the foreground is out of focus,

the subjects, era, lighting, location.

Perfection in my book.

Add it to the pile of

Snaps in my Life.

Shot of the Day

A Bookish Fortress

my 'area'

aka

the sunroom

has become a

smorgasbord of tented spines.

perched fully along the edges of the sofa

like perfect gargoyles.

apparently, I'm not one for bookmarks.

Dream A Little

9:00pm, saturday night.

ac-cent-u-ate the positive.

Thursday Mood

On the Turntable

This Very Moment

Love Monday

Beautiful Things Take Time

'With the Wind comes Fate' -Rilke

Spinning

Stormy Weather

Anything Different Is Good

Being here in Chicago feels like

I'm reliving the same day over and over.

Just Sayin'.

Flung Upon A Windy Hill

Rather than Think, Do.

On Heavy Repeat

Like This

'Dance, when you're broken open.

Dance, if you've torn the bandage off.

Dance in the middle of the fighting.

Dance in your blood.

Dance, when you're perfectly free.'

-Rumi

happy weekend.

besos

San Sebastian

I can't wait to eat basque cuisine.

work as an au pair.

live alongside the sea,

and learn the city streets.

Come September 25th, dear city.

Be good to me.

So It Goes

chicagoland, now.

brisk cool air has replaced the heat.

a drastic Fall from summer.

legs curled tightly under oversized pillows for warmth.

sipping hot coffee with a greater purpose.

so it goes a city of harsh extremes,

something that the core of myself

relates to.