Thanatophobia

Since around the age of 14, i suffer from 4-5 serious panic attacks a year.
These attacks are about
Death.
Nothing really ever induces these episodes.
I could be reading in bed, watching a movie, drinking coffee etc.
and suddenly out of thin air, thoughts of death hit me quick and right to my core.

Tonight was one of those nights.
I'm unable to wrap my head around the fact that
I AM GOING TO DIE.

living for a long, healthy, and happy life
before
i'm gone forever.

suckthemarrowoutoflife,
-lulu